Has it been 365 days already?
WTF, where did the year go?
No….for reals, has it already been 365 days?
October 1, 2015 hit me like a ton of bricks the moment I woke up. Last year, I was leaving on a plane to spend the next 7 weeks of my life backpacking, exploring and living a life that I could not really not fully grasp yet.
The anniversary of my freedom trip slapped me in the face really hard last week and brought about A LOT of emotions. For me, it boiled down to the reality of seeing first hand what the cost of not accomplishing what I want professionally really is.
A year later, I expected to have been back to Asia at least one time. My visions of jet setting where ever I wanted because I want to have not been realized.
But the biggest realization is that I am 100% no where near where I want to be.
No where near close!
And that thought alone hurts really bad. Why? Because there is no one to blame for that except for myself.
Now do not get me wrong, there are a MILLION things that I am grateful for and so many things have changed for me since taking my trip. I have an amazing life, am surrounded by some of the best people in the world. I have created a consistent income, just bought myself a new car that happened to be one of my dream cars, living in a phenomenal space with the best roommates that anyone could ask for, and I have learned how to open my heart and be completely vulnerable with people–but still I want more. So much more.
A life where I am free to do and be what I want.
A life of adventure and spontaneity.
A life where I jump out of bed every morning because I am so excited to get my day started.
A life where I play full out every single day.
Oct 1 & 2 were two pretty tough days. Both days I found myself in a gloomy funk that I just could not pull myself out of. Those 48 hours were spent focusing on every negative aspect that I could think of, and really beating myself up. Sounds like a great place for a coach to be coming from right? Thankfully, something snapped finally. I got another slap to the face, but this time it was from a loving place by one of my favorite people on this earth.
That slap was the reality check that I needed to come back from lala land.
Back to a place of responsibility and taking full ownership with where I am. If I want more, then I have to play bigger. I have to be willing to fail harder. I have work smarter. I have to bring it at a higher level. I have to believe in the dream that I am selling myself. But most importantly, I have to quit tiptoeing into the deep end and just jump.
Plainly put, I need up my game…a million times.
To get to the level that I want to be at, it is going to require some huge mindset shifts, a shit ton of hard work and a unbreakable belief that I can and will succeed.
Some one ridiculously important to me recently told me : “It is not going to be easy. It is hard work, and you will be overwhelmed at times but you just have to do it. If it was easy, everyone would be doing it….”
After a lot of reflection, I have realized that I have become complacent. I’ve become comfortable with what I have created so far. A life where I work less than 30 hours most of the time, I can hang out and play with friends at my leisure, I really don’t have anyone telling me what to do, I’m finally riding around in a car that I love, I have enough to do the little stuff without too much worry, and a great place to rest my head every night.
I’m living a life of just good enough.
Somewhere in that just good enough I have have started half assing everything and created a pattern of allowing mediocrity to be acceptable in my life. It’s all over….I can clearly see it in my workouts, my diet, my writing and my business.
I will not allow it to win anymore. I’m kicking it out of my life.
I was an unstoppable force as a child. When I wanted something I found a way to make it happen. Somewhere down the line I lost that fire and drive. My trip reminds me of what I can make happen when I put my mind to it.
I had absolutely no idea how I was going to make a solo travel trip a reality when I first started talking about. At that point, I had no idea how much it was going to cost or any of the logistics. The only thing I knew is that I had a burning desire to go travel and I was willing to give up everything in my life to make it happen.
My why was so intense, I never allowed a thought of impossibility to creep in.
That is what I did and my life will be forever changed because of that.
It’s time to channel that on a daily basis. It time for my greatness to come through every single day. Not just in glimpses. It is time that I become the force in this world that I am supposed to be. Asia, I will be back to see you next year. October 2016, I will be heading back for an anniversary trip and I plan on bringing someone with me this time. Someone amazing that is worthy of sharing these priceless experiences with. India, Vietnam and Bali we hear you calling!
From here on out….No excuses only focus. No playing small only the big game.
World, I hope you are ready.